We are living through a crazy time.
That’s an understatement, for sure. But I’m not sure how else to put it. Everything is so uncertain and changing by the minute, that by the time I finish writing this, things will have evolved.
In a video I recorded for my students, I told them that we have nothing to compare this to. That it’s a completely new situation, unlike anything we’ve experienced before. And that is absolutely true.
For me, my anxiety has been on high. I’ve been cycling between feeling isolated because of social distancing, feeling grateful to have a slow morning with a good book, feeling sad because I miss my students and our classroom, feeling cozy while curled up with Chickpea, and feeling frightened and unsure of what’s to come.
My point is this: it’s okay to feel all of those feelings.
Teachers, we didn’t expect any of this. We had absolutely no idea it was coming. To say we were blindsided is as accurate a statement as any. Many of us didn’t get to say goodbye to our students and we don’t have a clue when we’re going back. Some of us may not go back at all. That’s sad, scary, and strange.
We were asked on very short notice to shift our curriculum, support our students and families remotely, and take on a style of teaching many of us have never done before. All while navigating ourselves and our own families through it, too. It’s stressful, overwhelming, and a lot to take on for one person.
We’ve found ourselves with a lot of extra time, the ability to have a slow morning to drink coffee from a cup without a lid, and plenty of opportunities to snuggle with kids and kitties (and dogs, too, if you’re into that). It’s perfectly normal to feel grateful for those moments of quiet and stillness. It’s okay to enjoy them. While it feels a little wrong to me and I’m struggling with some feelings of guilt, I keep telling myself that it is absolutely alright.
Every single one of us is experiencing something new. All of us are trying mightily to find our way through this and adapt to the ever-changing circumstances. We are managing the health and well being of others as well as ourselves.
But we are in this together. We are not alone.
And it is important that in this moment, we give ourselves and others grace. Grace to feel our feelings, both good and bad, as they come. Grace to be human, flawed and wonderful at the same time.
We will be okay.
Sending my love to you.